"When Jesus heard it, He marveled, and said to those who followed, "Assuredly, I say to you, I have not found such great faith, not even in Israel!" -Matthew 8:10
"And He marveled because of their unbelief." -Mark 6:6
This is absolutely amazing to me that the Bible records two times that Jesus marveled. The first is when He marveled at the faith a non-Christian possessed! The second is when Jesus marveled at His own hometown's (Nazareth) unbelief. There could have been people who were saved, witnessed first hand that mighty power of God through the miracles of Jesus, and chose unbelief...Jesus marveled at that.
Wow, how often might He marvel at my unbelief? I am one who knows Him, serves Him, and loves Him, but it is so easy for me to reject His power in my life. It is so easy for any of us to do that.
I play piano and sing on the worship team at my home church and more often than not, I struggle with insecurioties. When I lead a song, thoughts like "What if no one likes my voice? What if they make fun of me? Am I really that bad? I shouldn't even be up here singing." Slowly those thoughts spiral downward until I feel as though I am at my lowest and ready to give up due to my insecurities. But what I have to remind myself is that no matter what, worship has nothing to do with me, except a willingness to be used. It doesn't matter what people think about my voice...it's not about that. Worship is about our Savior and Creator Jesus Christ; to bring Him glory. Through my insecurities, I take the focus off of Jesus and place it on myself and lose faith.
My voice doesn't move people to worship...the Holy Spirit working through me moves people to worship. Now that is what I must remind myself of. I must believe in the power of Jesus and how He moves through us doing all the work. He works not because of us, but in spite of us. He looks for a vessel willing to be used.
Allow God to work through you and practice the faith the Jesus marvels at.
